Lately I just can't sleep well. Thinking what's been haunting me missing the old me eventho it's an old memories between me and him. What I've done on letting someone who loves me go. And I hate waking up crying alone having the same dream and dreamt of the same person. May be this is just my karma that I have to swallow all by myself. I was immature, undescisive and too late on making the right decision with the one before. I'm just so bad at that times I pushed u away, I called him names and even unrespected him. And now I'm speechless. Speechless of how many times of regret I've going thru right now. I swear I hate myself. I fucking hate myself. I'm getting hopeless on everything. And I don't know if there's still a man outside who can love me the way he did. I just can't describe how regretful I am right now. I know it's just TOO late. It is too late. But I'm letting go of these feelings. Head up high and get all my strengths so that I can walk away from all the pasts. I'll keep those words. I'm just gonna step back from your life and make it as if you are just somebody I used to know.
May be it's true. There were never us.
